What is something you've always wanted to do, but haven't yet done?
There are actually a lot. Some I have already given up, for I know I can never have it nor do it. It's like reaching for the stars I can never reach.
Setting aside my very dream, for I have been out from my comfort zone for quiet a while already, one thing I really want to do is to pay off all my debts, to be free from worries, because its badly killing me, slowly tearing me down, visibly destroying both my outer and inner being. Sad to say but yes, including my soul. Apparently, I am ruined! By my own mistakes, my own choices of happiness.
Self- pity, here we go again. I am so done with you. You help me nothing.
Looking at the bright side, these mistakes help me a lot, it taught me great lessons in life. To do this and not to do that. A lot!! But I still continue to fail. I have to stop making more mistakes. I am no longer a teenager. I am an adult, married, a mother.
All i need is YOU, to guide, to drive the wheels, to take over, for this life?, this belongs to you. I am so tired with MYSELF!! I need YOU.